This post ponders the idea of turning sour feelings. a.k.a. – a shitty state-of-mind – – into persevering resoluteness.
I am thinking about the alchemy of emotions. Turning fear into fascination; frustration into fortitude, pain into power and anxiety into assurance.
It’s about turning my life around. Drilling deep into my psyche to pull through life with courage and conviction.
What I believe to be True
When we do things thoughtfully we have a better chance at transforming for the better.
Think about it. . .How numb have we made ourselves to our heart felt emotions?
When we are thoughtful we consider more possibilities. New ways of doing the same old things. Even the possibility of doing things differently. Disregarding old habits. Doing less of the busy and more of the productive. Challenging the status quo. Removing the habitual actions we have done in the past that no longer serves us well today.
New decisions lead us to a new destiny. A better, more balanced life.
Beware of Bad Decisions
Unfortunately, even smart people make bad decisions when they are in a lousy state of mind.
Good decisions come from clearing the head and pondering the problems. Becoming curious about why we are so dissatisfied with our lives.
What needs to change about our thinking?
Real change, sustainable change comes from deliberate choices. What new choices can we make today?
Problems are reversible when we get to the root of the cause.
I want to change. . . .
Feeling Rushed & Overwhelmed
I despise the feeling of racing through my day. Moving so fast, juggling so much, attempting to “get it all done”. That rushed and over whelmed feeling leaves me discouraged and disappointed.
Realistically predict the amount of time something will take me to do and add 60 minutes to that as a cushion. Build in some thinking time. Breathable time. Note to self: Realize life is a process, not just a checklist. It’s my pace, my life. If I can, I will always do it on and in my own time.
Slow down, stay as organized as I can, surf the waves instead of fighting the tide, so that I get the work done and not drown in a sea of distraction. No matter who is pushing me to move faster.
Feeling Tired & Exhausted
Serving others, really helping those you care for is our true purpose. I believe it is the most important thing we can be doing. To be of service. However, becoming a slave (persona non-grata) to everyone’s whim is simply enabling and demeaning to myself.
I choose to review every request for help I get today. I will no longer run myself into the ground for anyone or anything. I will take breaks throughout the day. I am not a puppet, I pull my own strings. Oh, and I rest at the end of the day. Sometimes in between projects too.
Feeling Insecure & Helpless
One of my best traits is that I am always learning something new, discovering new ways to do my job, developing more skills and increasing my worth. One of the worst things I do is say I can do something before I have mastered the skill. Yup, I do that and it is wrong. This lets people down. I over promise and under deliver.
I will never overestimate my talent or skills again. I will practice and become better, while only taking on paid projects that I know I can manage and execute. I will be very careful to accept money for something I am still learning. I commit to asking plenty of questions and never saying I understand something, until I truly do.
Feeling So, So Scattered
I am the dive right in type and I believe this is a good character trait to have, but I must learn to evaluate the waters before I jump in to the next project or relationship.
I promise to consider the possibility that I might not have the time to add anything else on my plate. I must have a plan before I attack. I must really look at what needs to be accomplished and not blindly beginning doing the task at hand.
Feeling Frighteningly Frustrated
Why do I rush? Who is pushing me to move any faster? Is it the warped sense of time that this global interactivity thrusts upon us? Must everything be done in an instant?
Hell to the hasty and heedless. No more rushing. It is time to calm my heart’s dark waters. I will take pauses, collect from deep thoughts and breathe deeply through it all. Especially the most difficult projects.
Feeling Like a Victim
Okay, I will own it. When I am in a lousy state I tend to repel those around me. I bark at people. I speak to them like they are inferior. This in turn has them on the defensive and they return the favor. They bark back. It becomes one big ugly dog fight.
I promise to stop taking on the world. Not everything is my problem to solve. I speak my truth more assertively and clearly without dictating or treating others unkindly. Sure I point out the elephant in the room but without embarrassing anyone. I will remember, it pays to be more patient.
Feeling Super Guilty
Us alpha types, we just like to stay ambitious. We have so much to do – to accomplish. Then soon come the distractions once again. The texts, tweets, Facebook messages and phone calls. The favors asked. In an endless loop of “I don’t have time for this!” I begin to feel guilty. I get confused about doing the right thing vs doing the “what I want to do thing.” Oh I hate disappointing others.
I leave room for interruptions. I prioritize helping those that I know need me. I question how important their requests might be. I help by empowering, not by doing it for them. I understand my responsibilities with each role I have in life. Mom, marketer, wife, daughter, writer, creator, friend – while giving my 100% imperfect effort to each role.
You know, I am a bigger believer in that we know who we should and should not get involved with – but we continue to make the same mistakes over and over. We give people second and third chances. We continue to pick the worst friends, business partners, clients. People that let us down.
I hold my standards higher. I listen to my instinct the first time around and I promise to be realistic about the people I am getting involved with.
Feeling Sad and Down
Luckily my regression to the mean is happy. Not happy in a ceremonious and demonstrative way, but in a satisfied way. I am not a high maintenance human. I require little to keep me satiated. However, sometimes, when I feel a pity party coming on, I can go places dark.
Move more and laugh more, while getting out of my own way. I make a thoughtful decision to have more fun with problems.