Everything at Once

It’s not suppose to be easy, but all these expectations only make it harder.  Madeline Johnson

Sometimes I wake up excited about everything. Well to be honest, I am both excited and terrified. Excited about the opportunity the day brings and terrified that I won’t accomplish anything great in my life.

I’m excited to start the day and I’m ready take off and I am terrified that I will not have the time.

Juiced up, I find myself in a frenzy of desire to do this and do that.  Like a child, I am lit by the divine.  I just want to get everything started already. I want it all at once.

I am oozing with enthusiasm. My soul is on fire. I am determined to co-create with God.

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I begin with the desires. I’m going to find that new place to live, start writing that new book, I am going to learn this and learn that.  All at once.

All of the ideas come flooding into my brain and I am energized. I’m supercharged with an unrealistic belief that I must begin everything right now.

I believe I might be touched by delusion.

I am ready to go. Today’s the day.  All the beginnings will be made at once.

By midday I crash. I exhaust myself mentally. I am tired before I begin. I overwhelm myself with the thought of it all. It’s self sabotage really. It’s also immaturity.

I know better. I know that everything takes time. It’s not suppose to be easy, but all these expectations only make it harder.

Most importantly, I must enjoy the process.

I remember that I am in between.

Start again with small steps. One thing at a time, one moment at a time.

I take a deep breath and begin again.

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Miracles by The Moment

Our purpose here is to make sure we love enough. Madeline Johnson

You should try this trick I do, because it really helps put things in perspective. You see, I reverse engineer my timeline to determine how I should live my life now. I look to see my future.

I start by picturing myself on my death bed. I am just about to take my last few breaths and I ask myself.

Did I love enough?

I believe an act of loving kindness is the biggest contribution you can make to this world.

Love, is such a big word isn’t it? It’s almost overwhelming.  It’s a word packed with meaning.

Did I love enough? can also be interpreted as, Did I forgive enough? Did I care enough? Did I give enough? Did I encourage enough? Did I appreciate enough?

But before we can really consider how much we love, I believe we have to rethink what we perceive love to be.

What are the first thoughts that come to your mind when you think of the word love? For many of us, even thought we know better, we are brainwashed from a young age to think of love as merely an emotion we feel. We fall in love. Love is something our mother’s are suppose to give us unconditionally.

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Love is not a mere sentiment of emotion, but the ultimate truth at the heart of creation.

– Deepak Chopra

What I am Reading: A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson.

I am contemplating the power of love and the role of love in our lives. I want to renew and relearn my ideas of love. I want to understand the bigger role that love plays in our lives.  The power of love.

Here below are some intriguing thoughts about love. Reflections from the book A Return to Love . .

Love is what we were born with. Fear is what we learned here.

♥ The spiritual journey is the relinquishment, or unlearning, of fear and the acceptance of love back into our hearts.

♥ Love gives energy and direction. It is spiritual fuel.

♥ Love is the essential existential fact. It is our ultimate reality and our purpose on earth. To be consciously aware of it, to experience love in us and others, it the meaning of life. ♥

♥ We came here to co-create with God by extending love.

♥ Love isn’t seen with the physical eyes or heard with the physical ears. The physical senses can’t perceive it; it’s perceived through another kind of vision.

♥ Metaphysicians call it the Third Eye, esoteric Christians call it the vision of the Holy Spirit, and others call it the Higher Self.

♥ …love requires a different kind of “seeing” than we’re used to – a different kind of knowing or thinking.

♥ Love is the intuitive knowledge of our hearts.

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Am I loving enough right now?

I am staying open and aware to the opportunities to bring more love to everyone today. I will continue to demonstrate love in every aspect of my life. To love more with my thoughts, words and actions.

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Feeling The Pull of The Present

I want to feel the pull of the present moment lure me in – Madeline Johnson

It is so damn difficult to stay present in the moment. Distractions are everywhere, especially in my mind, which vacillates between the recent past and unknown future.

Once in a while, when I can remind myself to pay attention, I become fully aware of my life unfolding in real time. It’s for a split second really. It’s as if I awaken for a moment. My mind fully in this present.

I want to feel the pull of the present moment lure me in. I am tired of not being here. I want to feel the excitement of unencumbered first sight, a virgin noticing.

I am looking for experiences that violate my expectations. Places, people and things that will take me somewhere new.

I want to get off the reservation. Travel a bit. Somewhere new.

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I expect being some where new will allow me to be fully present, my senses heightened, absorbing the freshness of it all.

To steward the contents of my consciousness to the here and now.

Tune in:  Jason Silva’s eye-opening perspective on this seven minute video.

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Your Soul Retrieval

One must wander, wonder and get lost in life and in newness. Anything actually that whispers an ounce of inspiration to you. Madeline Johnson

Some Shamans practice what is called a soul excavation. This is a healing ceremony and an act of rescuing someone’s soul, a reviving of that part that can be lost after experiencing difficulty or trauma or a period of soul sucking work. It could be a doomed relationship, a failed venture, a broken partnership or a depressingly cold winter season of  life. Regardless of how one lost their mojo for living, they haven’t lost it forever and it is their responsibility to heal.

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None of us have time for things that are soulless.  We want to feel inspired and charged with energy and love.

I believe we all have the natural ability to practice a soul retrieval each day. It takes persistence and can at times be exhausting, but it can be done. It starts with stillness and a search. A relentless quest for that breath of life that gives you wings and helps you soar.

Reviving your soul involves play, curiosity, exploration and continuous effort. Being fully persistent and curious about what turns you on, what awakens your spirit once more.

Many recommend that you think about what made you come alive as a child, but I argue, we aren’t children any more. Sure we might be emotionally, but not physically.  New passions will activate our soul now and will make us come alive again with a spark of joy.

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One must wander, wonder and get lost in life and in newness. New places, people and spaces. Sometimes in new creative acts. Acts of creation like dance, music, painting, singing – anything actually that whispers an ounce of inspiration to you.

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The Stories We Never Share

I don’t know about you, but I want to be the heroine of my story. By Madeline Johnson

Let’s examine those stories we never share for a moment, shall we. The stories we never share but they rule our world.  The stories that live in the recesses of our minds.

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The back stories that run a narrative  and lay a track over our the lives in the here and now. The scary stories of love, abandonment, rejection and hurt.

The stories that hold us back from exploring something new.

Why do we run the old stories through new beginnings?

We interject a pain from the past into our future.

Do we think somehow this will protect us from hurt?

Do we think only the paranoid survive?

I don’t know about you, but I want to be the heroine of my story.

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Our Duty to Contribute Some Peace To This World

Our duty is to contribute joy to the world. Madeline Johnson

The pain throwers. You all know these people. Their past didn’t live up to their expectations. Someone is always mistreating them right now. They may feel as if life is unjust, unfair and disturbing. They live their pain out loud. They blame, they shame and complain and oh God are they are bore.

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They bitch and they moan about the very people, their friends and their family perhaps, those that they thought they could trust with their heart and soul, those who have betrayed them.  They visit their therapist. Spending time revisiting their past.  That is, the past as they remember it. They remain stuck in the past with some story they had to “overcome”. Living a very unhappy existence.

A note about distorted memories.

Science has demonstrated that sometimes we actually build memories around our misery. We crave a cohesive narrative of our own existence and will even invent stories to give us a more complete picture.

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Carrying around false memories from your childhood could be having a far greater impact on you than you may realize. The events, emotions and experiences we remember from our early years will help to shape who we are as adults, determining our likes, dislikes, fears and even our behavior.

Memories can’t be trusted. Memories are malleable and tend to change slightly each time we revisit them, in the same way that spoken stories do.

Instead of living in the past, trying to pull apart what happened to you while fabricating stories of rage and abuse, perhaps you should choose to start living right here, right now.

Imagine choosing happiness right now over yearning for more of it in the future.

Imagine watching over all of our thoughts . Every single one.  The only question to be asked is. . .

Are your thoughts adding to peace in this world?

Don’t steal the joy. To make others less happy is a crime.

To make ourselves unhappy is where all crime starts.

Our duty is to contribute joy to the world.

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Inspired By Every Version of You

The practice of putting down the score card of assessment and focusing on loving our selves as we are – in constant transformation. By Madeline Johnson

Your true essence is unchangeable but you can choose a different identity at any time.  Your identity is who you see yourself to be; as you express this identity, it becomes the ‘package’ by which others identify you.

If you’re no longer inspired by the way you see yourself and others see you, you can adopt a new identity by changing your beliefs, choosing to accentuate other personality traits, emphasizing different values, or adding a new flavor to your self-expression. 

Our beliefs and values can change overtime, and what used to define you strongly may no longer be an authentic part of you.

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Our bodies know this instinctively. Our bodies are in a state of constant transformation and renewal. On average, our small intestine and stomach cells turnover every 3 days. Our bones renew their osteoclasts every two weeks. Our skin sheds every 10 – 30 days, depending on our age.

Up until very recently, it was believed that our heart cells could not regenerate.

Each morning, we awake a slightly new and fresh version of ourselves.

Yet we continue to judge ourselves. We are especially good at judging our old selves. We practice self-judgement every time we compare who we are with who we should be.

Yet, every day we are given the opportunity to be someone new.

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The practice of putting down the score card of assessment and focusing on loving our selves as we are – in constant transformation – is the perfect anecdote.

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Freeing My Mind

Retraining your brain, reforming your life. by Madeline Johnson

I am training my brain to replace my worries and fears with positive, grateful and loving thoughts.

Staying still. Noticing moments so holy, so beautiful, so sacred.

All day, I stay focused on emptying my mind and freeing my thoughts and clearing all negative emotion. It seems crazy, like I am talking to myself, and I am.  I just no longer want to be sad and struggling. There is no other way out. I want to connect.

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What a shame to have wasted all that time, thinking things that never came true. Unnecessary struggles. A stunning waste of headspace.

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I want to show up like an empty vessel to conversations, events and meetings. I don’t want to contribute my judgmental mind and ruin the potential of something potent.

This must be what they mean when they say get out of your own way. 

This is the most difficult thing I have done in my life, but the voice inside me tells me it must be done. Free my mind.

Read, Practice, Learn The Seven Day Mental Diet by Emmet Fox

 

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How To Face Your Day

Gently mold and shape your conditions to fit your current needs while using the tools that God has given us. The tools of free will, reasoning and intuition.

There are a multitude of ways that you can show up for your life each day.

You can resign to your life and continue to adapt to your current conditions, no matter how unsuitable they may be. You can move through your day with resignation. You have a choice you know,  you can show up as the victim, if that is what you want to be.

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Or you can be fierce and fiery and self-righteous as you attempt to muscle your way through your day. As you make big attempts to control every aspect of your life; white knuckling your way through the day with worry and fear.

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Or you can gently mold and shape your conditions to fit your current needs while using the tools that God has given us. The tools of free will, reasoning and intuition.  You can do this by remaining calm and empty of your ego and co-creating with the spirit of God in your heart.

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To Be Apologetically, Unapologetically Me

This post is a study on how to remain true to yourself while repairing some of your faulty framework. Madeline John

This post is a study on how to remain true to yourself while repairing some of your faulty framework. It’s about keeping the essence that is you, but knowing the parts of you that could use a bit of improvement. It’s about being apologetically, unapologetically you. It comes with being more self-aware and looking for clues from how others react to you.

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Those that know me know that I’m hard to hold back. I have a positive, enterprising, forcible way about me.  I do not enjoy wallowing or waiting.  If I see a change that needs to be made, a problem that should be solved, I persevere until it’s done, corrected, repaired. Those that love me appreciate this about me. I too, also value my tenacious approach.  The challenge is, while at times I may be an unapologetic  force to be reckoned with, I also have a tendency to leap before I look while stumbling to the finish line and bull dozing through any so-called obstacle that’s in my way.  Yes, I muscle my way through life, and while it’s unapologetically me, it can be extremely exasperating, vexing and displeasing. I therefore apologize and look for ways to be more graceful and thoughtful in my approach and tone.

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