With every rising of the sun,
think of your life as just begun.
Change. Transformation. Something new for you. It starts with ownership and attitude over your thoughts, words and deeds. You see, I take pride in owning my problems. I hammer away at them daily. Unfortunately, I also take on other people’s obstacles and challenges as well. Perhaps this makes me feel more important. Validated. Essential. Significant.
When Fixing Problems Becomes a Problem
By day, I deal with problems and concerns by constantly updating my to-do list. I also take time out of my day, time that I really don’t have, to help others solve their problems. And I get very frustrated when they don’t listen to my advice. It gets me so twisted. Have you been there? Do you know what I mean?
At night, I have a tendency to take those problems to bed and ruminate over them until I fall asleep from mental exhaustion. On occasion, I can even take that worrying to a whole new level of crippling pain and insanity. I believe I may have perfected the art of catastrophizing – believing that things are worse than they actually are. My mind a maelstrom of nighttime worry. Day in and day out. Night dreads and morning anxiety.
Believe It If You Need It
Meditate they urged. Journal it away. Pray they said. Clear your mind. I thought about it. I tried new ways and altered my approach. Crystals, sage, affirmations. Nothing really worked. Rote prayer never inspired me. I was seeking more. I wanted to focus on transforming my mind, breaking the patterns of rumination, tapping into the limitless, openness of possibility- – not just mechanically reciting phrases that meant nothing to me. I wanted to turn worry into wonder.
Show Me Holy Places Not Yet Found
Sometime last year, I considered writing down a morning manifesto that would reset my mind to start the day with a stronger, healthier mindset. This was to be my very own prayer, a promise to myself, my mantra for manifesting a more powerful and positive life. It’s working to help me reset in the morning. So on the start of a new year, I share it with you. Maybe it will inspire you to write your own. I believe it has helped me dissipate the morning anxiety that crippled my days.
I pray today that I remember that I already have the strength to sustain a positive open awareness and joyful caring presence through the gains and losses and the highs and lows that today will inevitably bring upon me and I to myself.
I know that I am brave enough to face this day and to be of benefit to this world. To be of benefit with a compassionate and loving attitude and to make sure it shines through with every smile, hug, word and deed that I do today. No matter what happens to me today, I remain constant and confidant that my loving acts will help me and others heal our pain.
Through it all today, I pray that I will be able to take full responsibility for my life and to groove through all the moments, the good and the bad without sinking into false refuge (drinking too much cheap wine, mindlessly snacking on chocolate and chips, gossiping about other peoples BS), without hiding from my pain and problems and without blaming others.
I pray that I remember that I have the strength today to positively face what is real and to take on each problem intelligently with love, humility and an open mind, knowing I need the help of others to grow and learn.
I remember that what we all want most is to be loved and acknowledged for who we are today.
I continue today to remember what matters most. That no matter what happens today, that I have loved more that I thought possible and demonstrated that love to everyone I have the fortunate opportunity of spending time with today. I am so happy and blessed to be alive today.
I pray that I feel strong and confidant enough and passionate about my purpose and existence that I may understand and act on exactly, precisely what God has intended me to do with this precious life and that I may become a more inspiring human being.
I am strong enough to be radically and transparently open and honest enough with myself and everyone I encounter and that I see everything in my life as it truly is, not how I wish it would be.
And may I have the courage to take extreme ownership of my life and change what I believe is not serving me or others well.
I will embrace the magic of today. I do not wish to simply make sense of today. I choose to dwell and inhabit in life’s sacred mystery.
To expand my awareness and elevate my consciousness and my attitude.
To stay fully awake.
For I believe that this very life is one infinite, remarkable, unfolding miracle.
The important moment I’ve been waiting for is now.
Every single breath I take, you take, we take is a genius gift of infinite energy, an inhale and exhale breathing into a limitless universe, of which we are all connected to and supported by.
We are all so much more powerful than we realize. We must remember this daily. We are not alone, we have God as our co-pilot. We are in this together, supported and loved by our creator.
For every person I come in contact with today has this power as well and together we are meant to hold each other in reverence, now and forever. When I talk to you, I am talking to God. God loves us all.
I remain curious and humble today, for this life, this existence, is nothing short of magnificent.
Life for me is a daily, daring, epic adventure, a thrilling mystery ride to explore.
I live for the questions, the seeking, the learning and the breathtaking moments of awe.
I am content with the unknown, I do not need all of the answers, but simply love the experiential process of living. I look up at the cosmos with appreciation and awe in my heart and mind.
I pray that I remain on the right path today and every day and that I am always learning and applying what I have learned to become smarter, stronger and a humble servant to love.
Gratitude is my living, breathing, moving prayer, and my heart pours open wide with an enormous appreciation for everything that happens today. My soul cries out a passionate loving thank you to God and the universe. This is how I pray.
And when I forget today, I will let my heart soften and melt into the moment. Remembering, with discipline that we are all temporary tenants here and all we have is this very moment. . . . we are all just one exhale away . . .
There is nothing to prove or improve about my heart today. My heart is in the right place and on the right path. No fixing or controlling myself or others. I am remembering and honoring that we are all made perfect already and everything evolves in it’s own time. No mistakes, we are all made of divine intelligence. We connect and reconnect to our compassionate soul source in each moment with each thought, word and action, it is like this that we return to our innate goodness, to our loving nature right now.
If I am disappointed today by someone or something, I remember to love through it with patience and understanding. Love is the only real emotion, every other, the absence of it.
This is my best self, my connected self. Leaning on the cheek of of God, I sway through a divine dance with life each day.
I remain awake, aware, alive and here.
I will not waste a moment of this life today. Not a single second.
I will not doubt my greatness today, the beautiful essence of God within me. I will remain calm and at peace for there is no pressure to do anything at all if the spirit doesn’t move me, for I already am perfect with God and love in my heart.
This is how I rise.
“We’re talking about metamorphosis
We’re talking about going from a caterpillar to a butterfly
We’re talking about how to become a butterfly.”
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